So, I get called into my mom’s room today, only to retrieve an owl cup, and to find out that we are moving again.
I have two feelings about this. One is good, because this house never really felt like a home to begin with, and the other is kind of sad because I kinda liked this house. I’m secluded back in my room and I could do whatever I pleased to.
And it’s really just now hitting me that my dad, is someone whom I’ll never get to know. And it kills me inside to know that. I feel so alone in this world.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
I dare you to let me be, your one & only.
You know, I lay here night after night. And wonder why I’m on this earth. Why my life is the way it is. Why is this person here, and why is that person there? I’ve gone through a lot lately; gaining people in my life, and losing some who were never really meant to be there in the first place. I’ve learned what not to do, an to stand up for who I want to be with and whatnot.
Even though, I’ve had the suckiest days ever here lately, everything eventually turns golden.
Between meaningless conversations with random people, to deep conversations with those whom I love dearly, I’m pretty sure I’ve learned a lot.
The past is the past; it should only e brought up if you intend on making amends with that one person you’ve always hated.
Babyboy, you’ll be young forever
You know those days when you really hope you didn’t mess everything up? It’s one of those days. I finally talked to him, and now I’m not quite sure where we stand. And it sucks. Because he means a whole world to me. And knowing my luck, I managed to push him away.
I’m terrified of getting hurt.
I want to tell him how much I miss him and love him and want to be with him and that I hope we’ll be together forever. But there’s that tiny voice in the back of my head telling me I shouldn’t do it. I don’t know what to do.
Every once in a while I feel worthless.
Like I don’t belong. Which is really no surprise, because everyone gets like this.
But mine is a little worse than everyone else’s.